I should stop crying because
It makes you feel upset
Or
It makes you upset that I am upset.
You dont seem upset when I cry.
You are more like angry.
you still can scold me.
Affected? Doesnt seem like it.
And you're not doing anything to make me stop crying.
All you can say is "stop crying, why are you crying?"
Seems to me you think I am a cry baby, who cry for every single shit.
Cry yesterday, why today must cry again.
As though crying is wrong.
And now you think I am using it against you to make you feel guilty.
If you think so, then let it be.
To you, I am a bitch who uses such method to make you guilty.
It's how i release my emotions.
Stopping the tears, doesnt mean everything its okay.
You want me to hide the tears? Fine.
FUCKING QUASH ALSO CAN FIGHT WITH ME.
Serious. what can we not fight about?
dont play then dont play la. it doesnt matter if I want to play what.
Because if you dont want to play, then what is the point of playing.
The point is I ALREADY FUCKING LEFT THE PLACE.
Means I already fucking over it that I am not playing quash.
SO WHY ARE YOU FREAKING HARPING ON THE GODDAMN PROCESS.
when I already ask you to stop harping on it already.
IT DOESNT MATTER. I am not a sucker for quash okay.
Its not like I will die also.
If you dont want to play, then nvm lo,
I also dont play.
Like you wan me to stand up on the train stand lo,
Like you dont want to play, then I also dont play lo.
One for all, all for one. isnt it so.
According to your theory.
THE MOST IMPT THING! not abt the fucking theory.
I AM ALREADY FUCKING OVER IT.
WHY ARE YOU HARPING ON SMTH THAT I AM FUCKING OVER IT ALREADY.
the fact i chose to leave, its my problem what. and I nv blame you for not being able to play quash what. so why you harping on it? yeah, so just SHUT IT already. stop talking abt it. because its OVER.
Or you wan to turn back time.
or next time dont do it again?
It's like your sucky gf cannot do what you want again. EVERY SINGLE TIME.
stand up with you on the train - I am a lazy bum, I like to sit
speak softer to you - I always talk loud, its not like you dunno.
wan bu qi de gf - that's how I am, deal with it.
sit beside you all the time - I am that insenstive
take initiative to talk first - because your tired? because I make you angry first.
the list goes on la I cant fking rmb.
So many things, then why?
So with all that, are you gonna accept me? or say me everyday until I change?
all you care abt is pointing my imperfections and teaching me how to be YOUR BETTER Girlfriend, the kind of gal you want.
Everything also say say say. Your gf fake one ah, Your gf got feelings okay.
How would you feel? Everyday got something to say about what you do. how you feel?
Everytime I also in the wrong. then you always right.
Everyday quarrel, unhappy, temper, dont talk. freaking vicious cycle, And you think its okay.
It makes me feel fucking lousy you know. Like I am never gd enough to be your gf. like I am damn fucking jiat lat, cannot make you happy kind, or you just got alot of things you wanna gei gao.
And sometimes I just feel you damn gei gao.
Because sometimes, its not even necessary la. thats how I am. Give and take la.
But seems like things I do always got problem la.
I am not like you. everything must confront confront confront.
Yeah my turn to change for the better right.
Because I am as worse as can be.
not like your fucking ideal gf right.