You want me to speak my mind.
I did.
Then?
If only I knew why, I would have told you why.

What's with all the negativity?
when I used to be positive, or at least I think I was.
Maybe that is how I am, maybe for now or forever.
Or with the lousy attitude that I had.
A side of me no one would really know.
After knowing this side of me, and knowing that there is a possibility I would remain like that
Would you love me less or love me the same?
Is that the Huijing you knew? or the Huijing you once loved?

If it was that Huijing that you knew in the past,
Would you still love her the same?
I dont think so.
Think hard and fast about why you love me in the first place?
Remembering how I was like in the past, bubbly, cheerful.
Would you still love me now, hoping that I would be the same person you knew in the past.
Right now, I am just a negative depressed person who cant practise what she preach.
who cant exactly handle her own emotions, shows attitude as and when she like.
I wouldnt even want to love someone like me. why would you?
Are you in love with how I was like in the past, or how I am like as a person?

Somehow, this relationship brings out the worst in me.
Maybe it was always in me? Or Maybe I am changing?
And Sometimes I wonder if the changes is a good thing.
I am not exactly sure how and why I am feeling now.
All this negativity, I wonder how I am gonna be okay.
Somehow, I know its wearing you down.
Maybe it would be a good thing to shut up when I need to rant.

Jaclyn AKA Huijing Sweet 17. Damai Girl Guide. Currently studying in MJC D.O.B 28 Feb 1990


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