{SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.}

Thursday, September 22, 2011

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The world would be a better place if
- People consider how their selfish behaviour can impact other people
- Sometimes stop thinking about themselves and think of the bigger picture
- People stop dropping bombs due to their irresponsibility
- People are responsible and accountable for their actions
- think of about what they post and how they will impact others
- think about how detrimental their actions can be?

Am I the only one who thinks of the bigger picture?
Is there anyone who thinks of the bigger picture?

What human nature?
Selfish intentions? Bigger picture? Where's the balance? How to strike a balance?
How is it that people only put themselves at top priority at all times?
For those who dont, then are they at a disadvantage?
or are they being stupid for not thinking about themselves at times.

All of a sudden, I feel so tired.
Like I cannot convince myself I can do it.
But I must not show this.
Even if I am not tough, I must be seen to be tough.
I cant seem nua to others, even though inside me, it's a struggle.
I wonder if it was so difficult for the rest. I really wonder.
Is it the nature of people now? The lack of passion?
Or is it that, everytime after I take over something,
it will crumble like how it did for guides? and now this?

And yeah,
Maybe you should leave me that day.
If you want to leave so badly then just leave.
I wont beg you anymore.
If it's not worthy, then just go.
I dont need someone who leaves me easily like that.
If you think that you're the one with problem, and you cant do anything about it anymore, just leave.

if its so tough for you, then just leave.
Sometimes, I wonder why I am hanging on so much for?
And you can just easily post on FB saying that you should leave that day.

Why am I trying so hard to hang on to this? Why?
Because I really believe there was happiness? that things can change?

and when you are angry, you just post things like that.
Do you wonder how it would make me feel?
Does that give me the right to say and post whatever things I want?
No it doesnt. You know how badly I want to type. yeah, you should just leave that day.
It just reflects how I am as a person. That I cant deal with emotions and i must post all this stuff and people will know that I cant deal with all this. I dont need this kind of publicity. You just paint a picture of how you are like as a person to ppl on FB.

and i guess your next reply would be "I dont care."
Seriously, touch your heart and ask yourself if you really dont care?
because I care. I care how people perceive you, I care how ppl perceive us.

Right now, it makes me feel like, you're right. you should have left.
And maybe next time you can find your super ideal gf.

Someone who is stronger than me , more sensitive, less commitments, give in to your every wants and needs, be with you 24/7, can handle your possessiveness, publicity of your affairs on FB, dont mind you skipping lessons, give you the sweet feeling everytime you wake up in the morning, let you check the phone every now and then, have no guy friends, taller, prettier, funnier.

After reading this, if you still think you should leave, then just leave.

If you're angry after reading this, Dont bother coming talking to me.
I dont need it now. seriously.

6:32 PM;