{SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.}

Friday, July 17, 2009

title:{HOHO}

went to butterfac, had a little too much to drink. Got a little tipsy, and giddy. Like things are moving when I am not, or maybe i was moving? i wasnt sure either. Is this what they mean by Being High??? it was more like giddy, and things moving around me! hoho.
It was weird, dont think i drank so much till like that. because normally i dont! but how expensive siol! hai yo. must drink till the last bit ah.

I am grateful that I am not feeling the after effects, not puking all over myself and stuff!

My ballerina-like shoes works wonders! Can dance like nobody business, because its pain free.
Poor pristine who just sprained her ankle is feeling rather cui, cos she wearing high high heels, and her ankle isnt fully recovered yet . INSANE. ask her take out dun wan!

DANCE DANCE DANCE, then suddenly Yol 's Mr Camera Cover bu jian diao. Dunno where! cannot find at all. Kept looking at people feet for it! lucky melvin found it!

Supper at Simpang, tissue prata and ME. Very happy!

4:29 AM;

Thursday, May 21, 2009

title:{MESSED UP}

i am in a dilemma. NTU sports science mgmt OR SMU business.

SMU business
Full of prospects, Can have a career in different markets
Nearby
Expensive fees

NTU SSM
interesting new course, however unclear about prospects.
Its like something that's interesting to study i guess, but I am not sure if this is what i am gonna do in my life.
And its not like i can easily drop out and study something else.

I have read some threads about SMU. Some good some bad.
Good because, wonderful prospects, high paying job.
but i am not sure if this is what i really want in life, to be well off, good career.
Or is this the choice that i would make because people think that I would have a bright future ahead of me if i chose this path? or maybe how the society expects people to live. high paying job, good career, house, car, a 9 to 5 office job? I really dont know. Reality is that we need $ to have all that supposedly "happiness". Its so frustrating to think that its not very possible to have $ and to love what you are doing at the same time. Nothing's ever perfect.

Yesterday I have almost made up my mind about going to SMU. already telling people that i am going there. But now, my mind is in a whirl. and its so bloody frustrating.

I heard that SMU is super duper competitive. 24 hour library, project rooms being booked till late at night. people staying over to study in the 24 hr library. Obession with their GPA. well but that's why I HEARD! i wouldnt know until i am really there to experience it all. And by then it would be too late to turn back.
But maybe I wont end up like a Smugger there or maybe i could just like one of them. That's a scary thought, losing myself and who I am in the midst of all the competition, and chiong-ness. I really dont wanna to end up like that.

I happened to read post from 6 SMU undergraduates ranting about their frustration on SMU life. They had quite an impact on me. But it happened to be a bad day for them, that's why they are ranting away.
I admit I do fear competition, because I am afraid of lagging behind while the rest are doing so well because they are damn competitive and chiong. ESP in SMU where competition is their culture.

I think I am giving myself reasons not to go SMU. It was never one of my priorities go there. It was just like widening my options. incase. but now that i could go there. I really dont know.

I could see it a challenge for me, to strive in a competitive environment. Where i could become someone full of confidence, and not being afraid to speak up. And the end result? A high paying 9 to 5 job, with frequent OTs, operational work. Mundane and dull.

I could just go NTU sports science and mgmt, the chicken out path because of my fears. Stick to sports mgmt. become an event planner, sports manager. A relative niche industry in Singapore. but maybe not in the near future?

What's my take? 9 more days to decide.

The bottom line is. I dont know what I want in life, hence I dont know what to do with my choices now.

7:51 PM;

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

title:{I hate the word changed}

Because of this,
u think i changed?
then i guess u dont really know me very well right?
Changed? Am I not someone u once knew and always knew?
Am I not ME, jaclyn huang huijing.
and u say that i changed because of what I did. ( like for curiousity sake)
OR was it something because you think that you wont do,
and you assumed that i wont do it too????
COME ON.
Yeah sure change. dont jump to conclusion saying that i changed just because i did that.
I dont think its very fair for you to judge me like that.
YEAH SURE i changed.
so i cant be your GF izzit.
or do u wan me to change to someone else that I am not?
OR maybe next time i shud not tell u things, shud not be that honest to u. keep things from u.
You want that?

Arent I doing what you want me to do.
or NOT doing things that you prefer me not to do because you would feel upset.

i really feel like telling you.
I REALLY CHANGED ALOT.or maybe u dont know me well enough.
i hate this changing shit thing.
simple word from u can make me think so much.

11:13 PM;

Monday, March 02, 2009

title:{BEST birthday ever!}

this time so many people celebrate birthday with me.AWESOME! & i made the same few wishes all the time!

today:

VB mates! i was suppose to meet "jun" for lunch.
but i end up meet them... =)

make a wish!

Around 5,

jolene met me first at tamp,then she came over my place saying that she wanna watch 4bia but she's afraid of watching it alone. So she came over to my house. Later, there was a cake at my door step, then i saw sher & charlene!

jolene , xy , charlene & shermaine came over to my house! We cooked pasta & watched 4bia together.jolene , xy & charlene were so freaked out, screaming during the movie, easily scared-ed ah they all. damn funny.

yesterday

met baby for lunch quite late at cathay, we ate at as

ton! cheap & nice! then i joined the usuals at tio heng to sing songs! which was so fun, hy keep saying i chu stunt!!! just very high ah.since it was my birthday. HAHA. sang linkin park & jay chou songs. THEN we had bd cake for me & yolande. then we sing bd song! after that we makan-ed at this hk cafe.

( sorry, i dont have the pics)

28th, 12 am.

Baby joined me & family for dinner on the 27th.we makan-ed at outback.then baby came over my place & we chill for a while. around 12 he said he had to go. so i sent him out.jun was gone. after a while. there's a card at our door step, which was meant for me. & giving my instructions to " wait for him at love's horizon, a celebration worth a thousand" haha.

& i found him at the lift lobby.. holding a cake in his hands!

baby gave me a wallet!!! i never had a wallet like that..i ask him how much, he dont wan to tell me. I loved the surprise he had planned for me. It was great! His brother helped out in passing the cake & present to him & wished my happy bd too.

dinner with my family at outback!

my colleagues @ mom bought me a cake during lunch.

It was very sweet of them to celebrate my birthday with me even though we didnt know each other for long. they even bought my presents! a belt & a top.i was quite surprised!

WONDERFUL birthday.

thank you everybody who made my bd such a wonderful ONE.

THANKS many many!

I really appreciate it!!!

12:47 AM;

Sunday, February 15, 2009

title:{this is for you.}

you're a wimp because you refused to admit your wrong doings.
you're coward because you twist your words around to justify yourself, to tell yourself that you're always right.
I despise you.I am disappointed, I thought you couldnt have do such a thing.
but once again, you prove yourself rite.
please. if you dont wan this family, pls get out.
we get on fine without you and your presence.
In fact, we doing better off w/o you.
pls get your precious mother out of this place.
& try taking up your responsibility as a son to take care of her.
instead of leaving her to mummy, as a burden, a blood sucker who gonna suck mummy dry.
dont you fucking know that what you doing is hurting her? dont you fucking know?
but i think bro's efforts are gonna be futile.
because you're plain HUM JI, and no actions will be taken by you or your brothers.
you're hum ji. because you did smth wrong, & you very well know what you did.
you're always fucking justifying yourself.
I am so ashamed of you..
that's why i will never in my life call you again.
I so fucking hope u get to read this.

I want you to leave us.

9:17 PM;

Saturday, January 03, 2009

title:{21st month anniversary}

today's our 21st month anniversary =)

We took bus 15 and alighted near parkway.And walk from there through the underpass(which we had some difficulty finding, so i guess we walk alot!!)

Baby and me went to EAST COAST PARK to cycleeee..

Saw people wake boarding and it looked really fun mans.

My butt hurt quite alot but nvm it was fun with him around!!!

It was awesome!!! doing something different with BABY JUN.

After cycling, we walk to go makan at the HAWKER CENTRE where there is cheap and nice food available!!!!!*SHIOK SHIOK*

ordered:

fried oyster

black carrot cake

stingray

satay

chicken wing

last but not least sugar cane juice

After makan,

We chill at the breakwater,

Camwhoring session begins!!!!

At the beginning......

JUST big wide smile for you and me!!!!! =)))))))))))

BLEHHHHH!!!

Both looking like retardddddddddd..I dont know kissing what?!?!?!?!

BABY's angelina jolie FAT lips...haha

A kiss from BABY.*MUACKS*

I love my baby!!! Because he loves me for who i am!!!

THE END

Conversation btw me and jun
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
the scar like obvious hor
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
scar?
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
where?
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
my eyes
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
my eye
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
bleh
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
oh
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
nvm lah
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
(:
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
doesnt affect anything what
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
hehe.
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
hmm
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
dont look nice ma
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
to me
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
ure beautiful (:
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
haha.
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
thanks baby
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
hehe.
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
you're the first to say that i am beautiful
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
nope
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
many people think tt
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
but only i get to say it
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
(:
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
hahas.
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
coz ure my love!
Jun-chama` is a jingist who believes in jingism. says:
hehe.
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
haha
Jing-chan : is a Junist who believes in Junism. says:
thank you bao bei

I am so gonna rmb today because JUN said this to me.

I am thankful that i found someone who loved me for who i am.

I am so gonna marry him!!!

haha

1:46 AM;

Friday, December 26, 2008

title:{CHRISTMAS BBQ with usuals!!!!}

CHRISTMAS bbq.24th DEC. RAINY.

It was raining cats and dogs man.We were all quite bored while waiting for the rain to stop. Hao yan started to Strike some man hunt POSES.

Hao yan the hunk then help to start FIRE with the help of....

the umbrella-holders, who were super important in protecting the fire in the drizzle.

All the FOOD stuff..................YUM YUM!!!

Pristine covering her hair. SHE was like going nuts about her new liu HAI. and later that nite she asked me if it was any different?haha.

Cuddling togetherrrrrrrr.. SWEE so XIN FU like that.haha.

SPORTS day people. USUAL team boys!!!

A new character was born. LIU YI DAO ----> KELVIN.( wo ah niang shuo......)

Usuals all together so NICE. I like everyone's smile. all LOOKED so HAPPY together.

all the 13 of us. I had the blast with darling usuals. it was WONDER FULLLL.

At the strike of midnite... WE shouted MERRRRRRRRYYYYYYYY...... CHRISTMAS...THEN we drank up. 50% alcohol +green tea/ sprite/ orange. HAO yan kept testing see which one cup didnt contain that much alcohol. he ended up being RED. Yol became lobster red too.

oh yeah. then beside us was a group of bank people. their umbrella ah all OCBC UOB POSB.many many ah.they on radio 95 want to switch to 98.7 mans.then they wrap all their chair with garbage bag and held on to their umbrella when they eat? like WTH? haha.

After the countdown, we went to pristine place and bath. Proceeded to SAMMY place. and played TWISTER.which was quite fun.

Sammy then on aircon for a few of us in the room, and we " guan deng, luan luan wan"haha. ( turn off light anyhow play) then we talk talk. And played PICTIONARY( modified version cause lazy to read the rules)It was hilarious. I SUPER N2. then like to act out then they guess what i acting..then it was clement turn to act.. the his head accidentally hit the double decker bed..then i shouted "PAIN..PAIN".. he was acting even b4 he was given the card.

haha.. SAMUEL was damn funny. because the thing we suppose to guess and his actions like freaking no link. only sam can draw the link la.. the rest of us like " WTH" haha.and alot of things we did targeted at poor sammy.And i kept burping through out the whole nite.

Samuel: ok, what do you need to carry SAMMY?

US : A CRANE!!!

Sam: Correct

Samuel : sammy ( points at sammy) you ????

US: SUCKS!!!!

Sam: Correct.

We played till 7 am. by that time everyone was like TIRED.

then we went home.

And i slept from 8 to 4

then met up with BABY for dinner =)

I had a great time with usuals...laughing my ASSS offf...Freaking hilarious pictionary!!!!

9:17 PM;